Mistake that lead to another one

How is it possible for an "educated" girlt to mess up her life? Could it be because of the enviroment surrounding her? She feels as if her life was set up. A specific person in her life has messed with her mind while she struggled for a way to fix herself. She went down as he raised himself in his so called "better choice"
This "choice" has led the children to choose a path that is not desirable. This choice leads to a path in which the child will then regret later just how their adult figure has.

Sweet future

Has he truly felt guilty? These past years brought nothing but pain, confusion, and loss of trust. Siblings tought to understand a different way. Adults learning to keep secrets away from them. They ask us why they tumble around in their sweat. Our answer, "we don't know". I can't understand their ways. As the sun rises and the moon falls, I wait and hope for better walls. This secret held within will no longer be kept. They know and won't stop with suggestions. She onced offered me a piece of paper with words I could not believe. She said to take it because I was going to use it one day. Well look here Mrs. I haven't touched that paper and never intend to use it because everything is going to turn out fine. Just watch.

This is what I had written in a piece of paper I found at the bottom of my bag. I had forgotten I had written it. I'm surprised my mother did not look at it. These words came out of a teenager's confused mind and had no idea what was about to come in the future

The siblings were taught to learn a “different” way because of the way the adults were talking to them. The adults could not see the curiosity that these young children were struggling with. So what they taught these youngsters were all made up lies, a way to make them stop asking questions. Now all the “we don’t know” are the answers we have to give but we do not want to. Why wouldn’t they allow their little minds to wander? I guess they thought they would find a part of the truth sooner or later. This truth in which the youngster would assume holds the key to what lies ahead. What lies ahead could be nothing more than a road to insanity or perfection. A world of insanity would only bring more chaos then before. Perfection could also bring insanity, which will then lead to chaos.
Each sunrise and moon fall, this girl wishes her “walls” to get better. Theses walls represent her home. The secrets that were wanted be kept away from the outside world is no longer a secret. Many people know what goes on inside these walls. Some people do not pay much attention, others do.
This new life these kids wait for will hopefully bring them joy. Not only will it be a good for them, it will maybe open new boundaries. They can teach what they have learned through their life’s teachings. As long as none of them choose the road my father took, everything should turn out close to perfect.

open your eyes child

Everyone needs to talk to someone once in a while. I know of a woman who will remain anonymous who has gone through a lot. She also had gambling problems. She allowed me to have second thoughts on why my father was doing this. Although she says there is no way to fully explain what goes on in ones mind, I would like to know my father is not doing this because of some disease that can damage him internally. All I know so far is that it has caused damage on the outside.

What do they think?

I wanted to ask someone how they felt about this issue. The person who I ended up asking first was my mother. I asked her how she felt about gambling in general. Her response stated that it was all just to take money away from you. Then I aske her how she felt about my father having a problem with gambling. She felt uncomfortable but wanted to talk about it. She knows it is all a "pleasure" that he wants. A "pleasure" he can only get from gambling. What triggers this need can be from problems he is having in his life. As far as my mother and I are concerned, the only problems he is having are bills and his mother.
There was a time when my parents would get frustrated whenever they would open the mailbox. They would stay up late at night trying to figure out how they were going to deal with it. My father's solution was to try and win some money from the casino. Unfortunately, not everything went according to his plan. He would come home with all the money gone and problems would start. Now my grandmother is a different story. She is the type that wants someone to think they are her favorite when what she really intends is for that person to help her with all her needs. My father isn't her favorite son but he tries to help her out as much as he can. He gives her money for food and rent, offers her to stay at our place for a while on the other hand, she is off loving her other son who is not the respecful type.
I asked my father why he gambles, his response was as typical as any of the rest he has given me. He gamble's for "hope". I asked what "hope" meant for him and he said it meant a road to a new begining. What road did he want to be riding on? Poverty, riches, a world full of anger? I didn't want to bring that up at this point for the fear of being lectured.
My brother, age 11 was asked once again by her older sister about how he felt about this situation. This time, calmer, he stated that gambling is a big problem that no family should ever encounter. He also said that anyone who gambles for satisfaction without thinking of their family should pay more attention to their actions. I do agree on what my brother says, they should pay more attention to what is going on around them, if they can. If not there are always GA meetings they can attend to seek help.

Characteristics of a Compulsive Gambler

What does one think when the word immature is said? One might think of a teenage boy who still plays with his food, or a teenage girl who whines a lot. According to a GA group, this "immaturity" is a "desire to have all the good things in life without any great effort on their part". This GA community believes that the best way to describe this is by saying that it is just "a need to have what one wants". Just like a four year old child that is spoiled and gets whatever he or she wishes by not earning it. By comparing these immature adults with four year olds it will clearly show and will be more understanding that both seem to have one desire in common. This desire that they share in common is a type of satisfaction. This satisfaction is based on how each individual reacts, "desire to have" everything they want without thinking of a way to earn it.

"Kids Left in Car While Mom Allegedly Plays the Slots"

Comments I read from this article[http://abcnews.go.com/TheLaw/comments?type=story&id=4853379#commentBox]were all mostly about how it is wrong to leave children in a car unattended. One thing I was hoping for was to read a comment that came from a child's point of view. Unfortunately I could not find one.

What I think about this is the same as any other person that wrote comments on this article. It is NOT a good thing. Since I was a "victim" I should say what I felt, right? I don't think I talked much about my feelings during the wait.

Well, I do not know how a 2 year old or a 3 month old baby feels. The only feeling I would believe we had in common was fear.

yay!

They didn't go out last night. I guess my aunt and uncle couldn't wait much longer so they went alone. I wonder how they are doing. They don't have any kids so I'm guessing they don't have to worry much.
Now, I still haven't been able to talk to my mother about how she feels about all this. I'm scared she's going to walk away from discussing it or tell me I shouldn't be worrying about any problems between her and my father.

Anyway...yesterday I had a short talk with my father...mostly because I was in trouble. Only that he told me something that hit me. He said he has done many things to my mother that he wishes he had never done. He would rather kill himself than to face all these consquences [and that scared me because I know he has had bad thoughts]. He told me not to do anything that I will regret later on. He said life has tought him a lesson and that if he were born again, many things would not be the same.

From my prospective, I believe he was saying this so I wouldn't do anything stupid with my life. I felt like he was sort of taking it seriously, but then hes said this many times before and STILL went off doing what he does. Yet at the same time, I felt like he WAS taking it seriously....